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welcome to the center of light radio

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with spiritual teacher intuitive

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musician composer and best-selling

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author of the Divine Principle anchoring

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heaven on earth your host Keith Anthony

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Blanchard kostikova Paul DePaul all

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around the world on the internet thanks

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to the Marvel of Technology I'm coming

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at you live on the inception radio

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network this is Keith Anthony Blanche

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and you're listening to sinner of light

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radio center of Devine and Fulton and

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reinforcements radio for the soul are

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you a spiritual seeker who's ready to

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move forward in your life if you want it

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to shift hmm

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from struggling to feeling that life is

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effortless send me an email at Keith

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Anthony Blanchard at gmail.com titled

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that subject Keith I want my free

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session I'll show you how you can move

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into your rpm recognize who you are plug

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into real power and manifest with

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effortless ease for all those things you

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desire deserve in your life again it's

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keeping it Andy Blanchard at gmail.com

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I'm if you would go to sinner of light

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radio and to the opening page you will

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see at the bottom left-hand corner I

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moved it you see a red Ferrari click on

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that Ferrari it'll take you to my

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lifelong work rpm as I said recognize

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plug in and manifest to the right of

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that you will see a signup form fill it

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out you begin to receive bundles of free

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stuff all of my creations to this point

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why because I can I like giving it away

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it does not belong to me that's just

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just what I do is how I roll

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speak March 11th March 11th 5:00 p.m.

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Unity Church Walnut Grove Road

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Memphis slash cardova Tennessee I'm

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gonna be giving my first public

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presentation in quite a long time titled

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radical transformation being able to

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touch your soul it's gonna be about an

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hour and a half event presentation small

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workshop but I'm gonna put some tools in

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your hand and I'm also going to open you

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up what does that mean people find out

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I'm gonna be guiding you through a whole

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bunch of things that's gonna help you

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realize that you are always in

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communication with your soul well of

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course we know that well this time I'm

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going to actually show you when you're

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in Soul essence and when we're in Armonk

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you mind a noise

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because the soul is always always

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speaking to us but when the monkey

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starts dreaming on it's a little

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difficult to hear March 11th Unity

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Walnut Grove road cordova tennessee it's

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gonna be powerful powerful powerful

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let's see if I got any other notes now

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Carol vinaya speaking about wake the

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[\h__\h] up the time is now let me tell you

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about Carol Carol is the number one

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best-selling author entrepreneur creator

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life coach blogger psychic and

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clairvoyant we're gonna have some fun

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today Carol also does psychic readings

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for those who are looking for answers

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related to relationships finance career

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a wanting help in making decisions for

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their future and do not know whom to ask

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after her third near-death experience

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she finally woke them up the blank up

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we're gonna start using the word blank

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we're gonna be nice even though we

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announced it for the title of her book

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and was now awakened on a higher level

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while being consciously aware of the

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life that she was leading this

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realization led to a change in life and

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career she wanted Carol realize that she

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was conditioned she was conditioned

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conforming to the norms of society

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welcome to humanity therefore she quit

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her secure position attained by working

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for the seven years with the province to

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pursue her purpose and passion and life

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Carol's purpose and passion and life now

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is to make this world a better place by

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help raising human consciousness through

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having an inspiring and positive impact

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in people's lives my helping advise and

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guide them to realize and reach their

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full

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potential increase their awareness and

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to operate from their true authentic

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self you can find my guests at Carol

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that's CA rol BA in ayo s.com welcome to

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sooner of light there thank you and I

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just want to take a moment to thank you

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Keith for having me as I'm a guest on

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your show or Center light and then hi to

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all of those center of life family that

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are currently listening and tuning in

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right now so did this all come about to

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you dear because of the near-death

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experiences or were you walking the

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spiritual path deliberately before said

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he met it happened after the fact

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because after my third near-death

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experience just something shifted I you

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know I think a lot of us can relate to

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relationships that you kind of at the

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beginning of the relationship you know

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that you should have never been in there

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but you just kind of again you push your

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intuition down you kind of go through

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that whole relationship and it's I had

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to kind of suppress myself my ambition

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and I just kind of got to a point where

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I was really embarrassed because I

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actually lost myself and my my

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irrational mind was telling me that it

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was easier for me to kind of commit

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suicide than to actually say no and

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leave the relationship and so a couple

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months prior to that actual relationship

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ending I I remember having a

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conversation with my xs/small at the

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time I said I wish he would just like

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you know cheat on me and leave me and

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essentially that ended up happening and

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once that happened it was like the most

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difficult thing but I felt free I felt

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like the so much weight has lifted you

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know off of my shoulders and then I kind

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of was almost forced to kind of go into

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the spiritual path and after that

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happened I went to I Tibetian Ida Benton

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singing Bowl meditation and we're lying

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down on the ground and the instructor

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said if there's any blockages in our

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system or in our body should come around

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and kind of hover over over us and you

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know I felt as my eyes were closed I

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kind of felt and I saw her has

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hurrying over my body and all of a

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sudden she kind of hit the type bit in

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bowls and then I saw the sound

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vibrations and then everyone everything

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just went pitch dark and for a while

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that kind of freaked me out because I

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thought I was going batshit crazy

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because I didn't know what that was and

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then six months after that I kind of had

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build enough courage to asked her I'm

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like what happened to me during that

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time I explained her this happened and

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that happened she said your third I'd

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opened but I think since that kind of

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little scared me at the moment cuz I

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didn't know what that was I kind of

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maybe had suppressed it again but there

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are certain scenarios in my life that

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kind of happened where I had more of

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that kind of spiritual awakening or this

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kind of sense of illumination I'm just

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trying to imagine were we talked about

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your near-death experiences you had

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three of them yeah give me an idea of

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what it was like between the three what

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was some of the common denominators and

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what might have been the differences I

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think the common denominator out of all

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of those ones is that I didn't I think I

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was already dead that I didn't even take

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a moment to realize the severity of each

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of those individual situations because

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it's like oh that just happened but I

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never really pinpointed like hey that

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actual you know when I got stung by that

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box of jellyfish that I could have

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stopped my heart I could have died you

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know that second near-death experience

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where we got rear-ended and pushed into

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the intersection we had to get the jaws

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of life to get us out of that vehicle I

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could have died then but it's almost

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like that happened and I just kind of

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just went on with life I never took any

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of those serious at all but again it was

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until that third one that I actually you

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know woke the eff up so these weren't

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near death experiences per se that

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you've actually crossed over this was

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more of the the idea that you came

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really close to the even at the brink of

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death yeah it was time for you in those

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scenarios didn't existed it pardon me

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time do not exist for you in those

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scenarios did it no it just like I think

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you know when I kind of talked about

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being conditioned to societal norms and

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and everything that's going on you use

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kind of a fail to kind of look at

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your life and you just become like a I

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call it you know the Walking Dead you

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know a zombie just kind of passing

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through merely and not really kind of

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div diving deep into your inner being

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and it's almost like not like them like

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having a waking awakening moment usually

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can have happen through a tragic event

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or it's something that you know through

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an aha moment but I think most most it's

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mostly through like kind of tragic

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events so that a third one kind of

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forced me to kind of waken up so I think

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you know I believe all of us are kind of

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divinely guided in the sense so it's

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just our ability to catch kind of

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actually tune into that and kind of you

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know go with where their divinity or you

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know spirituality or the universe is

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kind of leading you so between these

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three events you were saved from passing

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do you feel that we all have a time in

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other words it's not my time but yet I

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get out of an airplane and don't strap

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on a parachute you know or is it kind of

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a little mixture of both I I would say

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that I think everybody actually has

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their own time I think before we decide

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as you know spiritual soar beings to

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come into this life I think it's kind of

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already written how long we're gonna

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last in this particular lifetime and I

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think those near-death experiences

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didn't kind of take me away because I

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believe I have so much more to fulfill

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in this particular lifetime so much

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things to learn so much even continued

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continuous tragedy and struggle to go

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through because I if I look at you know

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the trajectory of where I want to go and

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what I want to achieve in life and it's

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kind of then universe kind of tests you

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like if you really want that how bad do

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you want it so let let me kind of put

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this in front of you that in front of

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you to see what you can handle to really

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reach where you want to go yeah I love

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that I love that you basically you're

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speaking on passion how much do you

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really want a certain something and I've

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already said if you can put the right

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amount of um you know passion would be

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the fire passion would be the roll up

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your sleeves and get your hands dirty

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kind of thing while sincerity is

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the very salt part that says I'm very

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serious about this I mean it you put

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those two together you have a recipe for

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absolute success would you agree with

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that dear yes yes and I think another

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important thing I think what really

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helped me through all these after my

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third near-death experience what has

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helped me kind of along my journey where

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there's certain continuous struggle and

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challenges that present himself in my

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life is you know the ability to invest

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in oneself so I in your film I really

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love your documentary

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you know the meek shall inherit the

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earth because you talk about well yeah

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you talk about a lot of your welcome you

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talk about a certain kind of questions

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that everybody ponder with it's like you

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you know where did I come from Who am I

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why am I here and I think a lot of

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people think they can take this magic

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pill to kind of all of a sudden know

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what they want in life and I think when

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people don't put themself I was talking

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to a lady the other day and I said you

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have to make yourself the object of

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study so meaning you have to know every

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kernel critical aspect yourself you need

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to dive deep to know you know what your

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personal and spiritual development is

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knowing what your strengths and

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weaknesses are knowing actually where

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you want in life defining your own level

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of success and knowing what core values

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and characteristics kind of you live by

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so whether mine is kind of be able to

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treat people would love kindness and

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respect and compassion you know and you

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know acting with honesty and integrity

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so people I think I think the world

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would be a better place if people just

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kind of focus on themselves and dive in

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a bit deeper make themself a study

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rather than kind of spending their time

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with the social comparison of like I

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need to keep up with the Joneses I need

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yeah and I think a lot of people are

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afraid to operate at their own authentic

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self right because they don't feel like

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they're good enough because again

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they're they keep on comparing

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themselves to other but people just kind

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of dive deep I believe everybody have

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their own special abilities and that

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special ability can be helped too

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make this world a better place because

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each of us are our you know solely

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individuals solely unique and I think

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everybody is gifted in some capacity

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speaking of special abilities let's talk

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about that clairvoyance of yours dear

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was this something you develop there's

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something that was just always present

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just hiding behind the scenes just a

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little bit waiting for you to engage or

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is just something that transpired via

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and because of these three almost dying

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scenarios I think in part and partial

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has to do with all the the tragic

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tragedy that I experience in life

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because it's not only near-death is kind

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of family career relationship all those

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different aspects but it's funny I'll

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tell you a story of actually how it

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happened I had a spiritual mentor and I

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said I want to become more spiritually

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advanced and he's like okay the only way

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to do that I don't want you to read any

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books about spirituality I want you to

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stop he's like I want you to start doing

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psychic readings and I'm like okay if

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you were just you know say Carol okay in

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the year so from now you're gonna be

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doing psychic readings I would say

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you're off your rocker so one day yeah

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he said that and I was talking to my

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brother from another mother Mubarak and

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he says okay this is what he told me I

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needed to do he's like read me right now

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oh no I'm not doing that so I sat in my

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chair sweating bullets and he's like

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finally okay okay I'll read you so I

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read his aura and there's certain words

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of you know caring compassion that came

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up with aura that I saw and my other

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friend came in the room and he's asked

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healer as well so he actually can see

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auras so he's like read mine and I'm

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like no I'm not going to do it so again

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I was you know put in a position I was

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very nervous but I read his and he says

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you're exactly right and it's like okay

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just to make sure move back and read me

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again and then I sure enough I move back

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and then he changed his aura and then I

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read it exactly and it just so happened

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that evening there was an event an

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option at a spiritual choice Church and

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we all went there and they're like you

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got a option of your psychic readings

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I'm like I'm not even dead what am I

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still entire life but I ended up doing

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it and then there's two ladies that were

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actually fighting to kind of

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when the bidding and those two ladies I

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attended and that's how I started and

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that was only the last week of the

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second week of December 2017 I love the

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fact that you were accurate I don't when

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I do readings when I used to I still do

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them I don't go up from the perspective

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of trying to be right I don't have that

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syndrome I go it from the perspective

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wanting to be accurate yeah for the

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person but also would brings into the

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picture the idea that whatever it is

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they hear maybe that's exactly what they

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need for their growth I get all that in

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my very first reading dear Lord this

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must have been 1990 mmm 596 I had no

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agenda I had no idea what the heck I was

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doing I threw some cards upside down and

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looking at him and because I had no ego

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involved or the need to be right and or

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accurate I was so dead on I'm scared too

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because I was clear I had no agenda I

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was just throwing cards down and they're

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looking at me like what are you actually

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telling you this right now so what does

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this Clara audience come in for you I'm

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being a musician I know what Audient is

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but how does it show up for use it as

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noise is it a sound is it a voice it's

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just a because it's it's because I do it

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when the person is sitting across from

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me I do it all close eyes so I actually

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close my eyes I can I can see their aura

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and then it presents and then I start

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seeing their past lives and then I kind

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of read their aura again to kind of

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clear point to see if there's any the

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color changes or anything like that and

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then I allow them to bring their own

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questions that are specifically related

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to them and then I after that I'll scan

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their body and then I'll see when I scan

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their body that there's certain kind of

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like muggy darkness in certain areas of

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their body and then I can and then I

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kind of interpret what that is and then

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it shows me that a certain age that they

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they've had a certain a certain age that

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kind of changed everything it's kind of

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like if they were wanting to be free and

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unique it's almost like someone said

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something to that person that made them

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kind of

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down and hide from their true being so I

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was able to pinpoint that age that

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happened and then as a result this was

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kind of how things transpired and I also

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sees images and words that pop up and

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then I kind of interpret it interpret

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that as well if you would give our

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listening audience an idea of what your

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book like the [\h__\h] is about okay so

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wake the [\h__\h] up is basically my own

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personal experience of what I had to go

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through to get to my awakening moment

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and I the reason why I wrote this book

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was to be able to help people through my

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mistakes and inspire them to kind of

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achieve whatever they want despite the

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challenges that are currently facing

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them and I think the the one thing I do

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talking about in my book that's kind of

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what I've been dealing with with the

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last four years has been the most

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challenging situation that I ever had to

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struggle with so four years ago my

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brother he he was in jail and he wanted

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a second chance at life and he wanted me

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to help them and I put he asked me to

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put a business underneath my name and

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you know I honestly thought it was a

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legitimate business and so I did it for

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him because I believe everybody has a

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second chance at life and I know certain

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decisions shape your destiny so I think

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you know even the struggle was meant to

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happen for me to learn and it's because

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of this struggle that I went through is

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the reason why I actually wrote this

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book so kind of fast-forward after

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helping him start up that business

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something happened and I don't know what

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he got involved in and then I ended up

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going home my house was raided and then

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I was you know put over a cop car

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and then having to be put in the room

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I'm told to like strip bend over and

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cough and then being put in a hole for

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three days you know so it was it was

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very it was such an invasion of privacy

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that I didn't I couldn't comprehend that

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with what was happening to me and then

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from there I guess I

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spent like two two weeks in jail

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approximately and then oh yeah so from

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that situation I actually lost

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everything I lost everything I was

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character assassinated you know what I

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mean certain people didn't want to talk

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to me anymore and I just didn't know

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what what to do but since I've already

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invested myself with personal

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development I was I kind of mentally

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prepared myself for it and even though I

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lost everything I realized that I

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actually had everything you know those

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that position that title it's not really

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me who I am I'm a you know I'm a

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spiritual being having a human

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experience here on this earth and I grow

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and develop based on the situations and

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experiences that I choose so when I lost

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everything like I said I realized I had

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everything I had a place to stay I had a

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roof over my head I had you know I could

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take hot showers you know what I mean

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but the one thing I know for sure they

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can never take from me is an experience

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that I already had my mental capacity to

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kind of go forward and my skills and

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abilities so even though I was you know

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kicked down I was able to get back up

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and then go through continue to pursue

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my goals and targets in life it was very

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like difficult and and then to have to

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go through that and then I went through

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a year or so where I consistently

541
00:22:29,960 --> 00:22:28,379
consistently every single day just six

542
00:22:31,940 --> 00:22:29,970
to eight hours of personal development

543
00:22:34,460 --> 00:22:31,950
so I can get my mind right and I

544
00:22:37,669 --> 00:22:34,470
wouldn't revert back to that feeling of

545
00:22:39,259 --> 00:22:37,679
wanting to commit suicide and just to

546
00:22:40,970 --> 00:22:39,269
kind of strengthen my muscles to be like

547
00:22:44,149 --> 00:22:40,980
you know I know everything that's going

548
00:22:47,330 --> 00:22:44,159
on I can't I can't I don't have any

549
00:22:49,249 --> 00:22:47,340
control over how people are gonna talk

550
00:22:51,919 --> 00:22:49,259
about me perceive me the only thing that

551
00:22:54,590 --> 00:22:51,929
I have control over is how I think of

552
00:22:55,940 --> 00:22:54,600
the situation and Shakespeare says

553
00:22:58,220 --> 00:22:55,950
there's nothing either good or bad but

554
00:23:00,200 --> 00:22:58,230
thinking that makes it so so if you look

555
00:23:02,810 --> 00:23:00,210
at that quote itself it's almost like no

556
00:23:05,389 --> 00:23:02,820
situation is good or bad and you have to

557
00:23:06,649 --> 00:23:05,399
kind of extract you know the positive

558
00:23:08,810 --> 00:23:06,659
experience from anything you're going

559
00:23:13,279 --> 00:23:08,820
through and you should never ask that

560
00:23:14,720 --> 00:23:13,289
life be easy because life easy life is

561
00:23:17,109 --> 00:23:14,730
boring you have to

562
00:23:19,549 --> 00:23:17,119
ask that like give you the circumstances

563
00:23:22,159 --> 00:23:19,559
experiences whatever is necessary to

564
00:23:24,230 --> 00:23:22,169
handle any adversity in your life you

565
00:23:26,239 --> 00:23:24,240
know and now I kind of embrace

566
00:23:28,639 --> 00:23:26,249
I love the pain and that makes me the

567
00:23:30,590 --> 00:23:28,649
champion so I know once you accept that

568
00:23:32,269 --> 00:23:30,600
pain and struggle is inevitable it's a

569
00:23:33,950 --> 00:23:32,279
part of life then you won't be so

570
00:23:36,470 --> 00:23:33,960
surprised when it happens it's kind of

571
00:23:40,340 --> 00:23:36,480
giving you that that muscle to kind of

572
00:23:42,680 --> 00:23:40,350
be stronger yeah when you will when you

573
00:23:44,509 --> 00:23:42,690
went to jail for two weeks were you at

574
00:23:48,529 --> 00:23:44,519
least somewhat on your spirit to work at

575
00:23:52,220 --> 00:23:48,539
that time yeah so did you use all these

576
00:23:55,220 --> 00:23:52,230
different metaphors to help bring it to

577
00:23:56,629 --> 00:23:55,230
your awareness of what down dynamic

578
00:23:58,850 --> 00:23:56,639
might be happening within you for

579
00:24:00,529 --> 00:23:58,860
example when you went to jail were you

580
00:24:03,440 --> 00:24:00,539
able to put the pieces together that

581
00:24:05,899 --> 00:24:03,450
some part of me is keeping me imprisoned

582
00:24:07,879 --> 00:24:05,909
were you at the level of awareness to

583
00:24:10,369 --> 00:24:07,889
where you were actually being able to

584
00:24:11,960 --> 00:24:10,379
take the outside as reflecting to you

585
00:24:16,190 --> 00:24:11,970
where you were located inside of

586
00:24:19,129 --> 00:24:16,200
yourself I think in in somewhat yes but

587
00:24:22,460 --> 00:24:19,139
now when I look back at it I think even

588
00:24:25,460 --> 00:24:22,470
more so that I was kind of spiritually

589
00:24:27,049 --> 00:24:25,470
guided and that you know there are

590
00:24:29,960 --> 00:24:27,059
certain things that I needed to work on

591
00:24:32,779 --> 00:24:29,970
and myself to not allow that same

592
00:24:36,049 --> 00:24:32,789
mistake to happen you know and again

593
00:24:37,399 --> 00:24:36,059
like you know especially with going

594
00:24:39,379 --> 00:24:37,409
through a situation and it's your own

595
00:24:40,399 --> 00:24:39,389
blood your brother that puts you in that

596
00:24:42,649 --> 00:24:40,409
situation

597
00:24:45,019 --> 00:24:42,659
I could have been like I'm never helping

598
00:24:48,019 --> 00:24:45,029
anybody again like this is what happens

599
00:24:50,659 --> 00:24:48,029
to me when I help people but that the

600
00:24:52,999 --> 00:24:50,669
exact opposite happened it's like I have

601
00:24:54,590 --> 00:24:53,009
to even help people even more because I

602
00:24:56,119 --> 00:24:54,600
do not want them to have to go through

603
00:24:58,549 --> 00:24:56,129
the same experience that I went through

604
00:25:00,440 --> 00:24:58,559
and it's because of that last experience

605
00:25:03,460 --> 00:25:00,450
that I'm still going through this day as

606
00:25:06,440 --> 00:25:03,470
the reason why I actually wrote the book

607
00:25:09,560 --> 00:25:06,450
yeah cuz I I believe that you know when

608
00:25:11,330 --> 00:25:09,570
you are open and honest and you meet

609
00:25:13,340 --> 00:25:11,340
people say this is situation this is

610
00:25:14,659 --> 00:25:13,350
what happens to me they'll either you

611
00:25:16,190 --> 00:25:14,669
know take it or leave it but I think

612
00:25:18,139 --> 00:25:16,200
when you come with sincerity like you

613
00:25:20,419 --> 00:25:18,149
were saying before then there's nothing

614
00:25:21,980 --> 00:25:20,429
that can really hurt you

615
00:25:24,080 --> 00:25:21,990
and I think with the people who are

616
00:25:27,440 --> 00:25:24,090
actually judging others it's almost like

617
00:25:28,340 --> 00:25:27,450
it's not it's not the person that you're

618
00:25:30,560 --> 00:25:28,350
being judged

619
00:25:32,029 --> 00:25:30,570
that has anything to do with it you have

620
00:25:34,730 --> 00:25:32,039
to kind of look at the person who is

621
00:25:36,880 --> 00:25:34,740
judging like you know you have to have

622
00:25:39,049 --> 00:25:36,890
it as a step back and be like you know

623
00:25:41,240 --> 00:25:39,059
maybe there's something more to this

624
00:25:43,610 --> 00:25:41,250
instead of what's being portrayed about

625
00:25:47,919 --> 00:25:43,620
this particular individual and you know

626
00:25:51,860 --> 00:25:47,929
from going for through a professional

627
00:25:54,080 --> 00:25:51,870
scenario and then going to become a

628
00:25:57,049 --> 00:25:54,090
professional toilet cleaner you know

629
00:25:58,310 --> 00:25:57,059
it's it's very humbling because at the

630
00:26:01,520 --> 00:25:58,320
same time I know there's certain things

631
00:26:04,820 --> 00:26:01,530
I needed to do to kind of get back on

632
00:26:05,960 --> 00:26:04,830
track and you know keep on creating

633
00:26:07,760 --> 00:26:05,970
because I think that's what we're all

634
00:26:11,320 --> 00:26:07,770
here to do is just create and to help

635
00:26:13,549 --> 00:26:11,330
others you had mentioned about people

636
00:26:16,610 --> 00:26:13,559
being concerned what other people think

637
00:26:18,409 --> 00:26:16,620
it's come to me I've come to a state of

638
00:26:20,779 --> 00:26:18,419
realization that when we are worried

639
00:26:23,090 --> 00:26:20,789
would other people think all you're

640
00:26:25,430 --> 00:26:23,100
doing is taking our self judgment and

641
00:26:27,380 --> 00:26:25,440
projecting it onto someone else because

642
00:26:29,090 --> 00:26:27,390
I don't want to be responsible for what

643
00:26:30,980 --> 00:26:29,100
I think about myself so I'm going to

644
00:26:34,880 --> 00:26:30,990
concern myself thinking that other

645
00:26:36,289 --> 00:26:34,890
people are thinking this about me yeah

646
00:26:39,320 --> 00:26:36,299
because it's funny you say that because

647
00:26:41,480 --> 00:26:39,330
I think you know in the lines of even

648
00:26:43,610 --> 00:26:41,490
like focusing your attention on other

649
00:26:46,010 --> 00:26:43,620
people even the other side of that is

650
00:26:47,600 --> 00:26:46,020
like when you see somebody and you they

651
00:26:49,430 --> 00:26:47,610
really urge you they're like oh I don't

652
00:26:51,470 --> 00:26:49,440
like that person at all but it's almost

653
00:26:54,289 --> 00:26:51,480
like kind of again putting up a mirror

654
00:26:56,060 --> 00:26:54,299
and up into your face and being like

655
00:26:58,279 --> 00:26:56,070
maybe there's something in that person

656
00:27:01,549 --> 00:26:58,289
that I do not like that's resides in me

657
00:27:02,120 --> 00:27:01,559
so let me kind of explore that from the

658
00:27:04,669 --> 00:27:02,130
chat room

659
00:27:06,860 --> 00:27:04,679
Rowan Lewis 19 asked the question yes

660
00:27:11,570 --> 00:27:06,870
you feel does she feel any guilt for

661
00:27:13,820 --> 00:27:11,580
having felt that not being able to

662
00:27:15,470 --> 00:27:13,830
control her thoughts do you feel any

663
00:27:18,799 --> 00:27:15,480
guilt for the process you went through

664
00:27:22,669 --> 00:27:18,809
back then no I don't because I think all

665
00:27:24,950 --> 00:27:22,679
of that is part of my growth you know

666
00:27:26,690 --> 00:27:24,960
you kind of everything that happens to

667
00:27:29,480 --> 00:27:26,700
your life like you know when that when

668
00:27:32,810 --> 00:27:29,490
that situation did happen to me I I did

669
00:27:35,810 --> 00:27:32,820
go into a pity party but since I kind of

670
00:27:37,850 --> 00:27:35,820
conditioned my mind that it's like I I'm

671
00:27:41,149 --> 00:27:37,860
not a slave to my mind I want to become

672
00:27:42,109 --> 00:27:41,159
a master of it that I quickly was able

673
00:27:43,549 --> 00:27:42,119
to kind of

674
00:27:45,589 --> 00:27:43,559
the script and kind of turn it from

675
00:27:48,109 --> 00:27:45,599
being a victim to a victor of my

676
00:27:49,549 --> 00:27:48,119
circumstance and I think in life we have

677
00:27:52,279 --> 00:27:49,559
to allow ourselves to go through all

678
00:27:53,569 --> 00:27:52,289
this turmoil to kind of be able to

679
00:27:54,949 --> 00:27:53,579
accept the light and darkness that

680
00:27:57,979 --> 00:27:54,959
exists within us

681
00:27:59,839 --> 00:27:57,989
yeah Rowan uh define the question the

682
00:28:02,089 --> 00:27:59,849
question a little further just having

683
00:28:04,159 --> 00:28:02,099
the thought of hurting yourself did you

684
00:28:07,519 --> 00:28:04,169
ever go through a period of feeling bad

685
00:28:09,769 --> 00:28:07,529
about you know that kind of stuff no I

686
00:28:12,549 --> 00:28:09,779
think maybe at the time it was kind of a

687
00:28:15,019 --> 00:28:12,559
vicious cycle since I was like in such a

688
00:28:17,659 --> 00:28:15,029
depressed state of mind it's almost like

689
00:28:20,149 --> 00:28:17,669
you you can't think you can't think

690
00:28:22,429 --> 00:28:20,159
clearly you're you're irrational so

691
00:28:24,649 --> 00:28:22,439
basically what happens is like I was

692
00:28:26,569 --> 00:28:24,659
depressed and since I was too depressed

693
00:28:30,289 --> 00:28:26,579
I tried to numb that down with food and

694
00:28:31,309 --> 00:28:30,299
because I ate like [\h__\h] then I came more

695
00:28:33,199 --> 00:28:31,319
depressed so it was kind of like a

696
00:28:34,999 --> 00:28:33,209
vicious cycle that kept on going and

697
00:28:37,729 --> 00:28:35,009
going and and luckily I I believe

698
00:28:40,009 --> 00:28:37,739
divinity made something happen for me to

699
00:28:41,569 --> 00:28:40,019
snap out of it to be like hey this is

700
00:28:43,699 --> 00:28:41,579
not the life that you're meant to live

701
00:28:45,859 --> 00:28:43,709
you're destined for greatness your guess

702
00:28:48,319 --> 00:28:45,869
is for something more so let's kind of

703
00:28:49,939 --> 00:28:48,329
like you know put you onto your own like

704
00:28:53,149 --> 00:28:49,949
path where you can trailblaze rather

705
00:28:54,409 --> 00:28:53,159
than going blindly with the Sheep chief

706
00:28:55,669 --> 00:28:54,419
anthony blade you to you host the sinner

707
00:28:57,139 --> 00:28:55,679
of light radio monday night 6 p.m.

708
00:28:59,509 --> 00:28:57,149
Eastern Time you can find me sitting

709
00:29:01,879 --> 00:28:59,519
here in this chair my guest tonight is

710
00:29:04,789 --> 00:29:01,889
miss Carol Bonet us and we're speaking

711
00:29:06,979 --> 00:29:04,799
about weight the f-bomb up Carol would

712
00:29:08,479 --> 00:29:06,989
you give take this opportunity to share

713
00:29:09,619 --> 00:29:08,489
without listening on its how they can

714
00:29:10,789 --> 00:29:09,629
connect with you and all that you're

715
00:29:12,709 --> 00:29:10,799
doing all the different sites that you

716
00:29:14,419 --> 00:29:12,719
have and many ways they can just find

717
00:29:17,479 --> 00:29:14,429
out what you are doing and your

718
00:29:23,059 --> 00:29:17,489
contribution to this world okay so you

719
00:29:25,369 --> 00:29:23,069
guys can check me out on wwe.com you can

720
00:29:27,739 --> 00:29:25,379
also I also started a wake the [\h__\h] up

721
00:29:29,239 --> 00:29:27,749
movement which is basically geared to

722
00:29:32,239 --> 00:29:29,249
help people along their journey so I

723
00:29:35,629 --> 00:29:32,249
meet I have meetups every Tuesday so you

724
00:29:37,219 --> 00:29:35,639
can go to meetup.com and search wake the

725
00:29:40,429 --> 00:29:37,229
[\h__\h] up movement and kind of become a

726
00:29:42,229 --> 00:29:40,439
member there and I also have a business

727
00:29:43,999 --> 00:29:42,239
with my business partner mubarak

728
00:29:46,039 --> 00:29:44,009
business snapshot and we help

729
00:29:48,349 --> 00:29:46,049
entrepreneurs transition from working

730
00:29:50,839 --> 00:29:48,359
into on their business so they can have

731
00:29:53,420 --> 00:29:50,849
the freedom and flexibility that they

732
00:29:56,780 --> 00:29:53,430
wanted and deserve in life

733
00:29:59,090 --> 00:29:56,790
from the chat room Squatch detective

734
00:30:02,900 --> 00:29:59,100
says depression is more harmful than

735
00:30:04,700 --> 00:30:02,910
physical pain Squatch I don't know if

736
00:30:07,340 --> 00:30:04,710
you know I'm assuming or I'm sure you

737
00:30:09,350 --> 00:30:07,350
maybe do because you brought it up we

738
00:30:10,460 --> 00:30:09,360
all know that well most of us know Carol

739
00:30:13,010 --> 00:30:10,470
can you talk a little bit about

740
00:30:16,300 --> 00:30:13,020
depression and the fact that it is its

741
00:30:19,010 --> 00:30:16,310
dwelling on the past as anxiety is

742
00:30:20,210 --> 00:30:19,020
fearing the future let's talk a little

743
00:30:22,250 --> 00:30:20,220
bit about depression from your

744
00:30:26,680 --> 00:30:22,260
experience and how one can begin to move

745
00:30:29,840 --> 00:30:26,690
through that dark night of the soul oh

746
00:30:32,090 --> 00:30:29,850
well it's you know I'll try to refrain

747
00:30:34,430 --> 00:30:32,100
from keep on using the word but there

748
00:30:36,920 --> 00:30:34,440
there's this quote that I recently

749
00:30:40,250 --> 00:30:36,930
developed and it's own it says that

750
00:30:42,140 --> 00:30:40,260
waking the the [\h__\h] up is the very

751
00:30:46,040 --> 00:30:42,150
moment that you realize that you were

752
00:30:47,750 --> 00:30:46,050
asleep so in your depressive States it's

753
00:30:50,060 --> 00:30:47,760
almost like there's something will

754
00:30:52,700 --> 00:30:50,070
happen where you realize that you are

755
00:30:54,590 --> 00:30:52,710
not in alignment and you are you know

756
00:30:56,810 --> 00:30:54,600
have your this inner turmoil and it's

757
00:30:59,300 --> 00:30:56,820
always a choice that you can make in a

758
00:31:00,890 --> 00:30:59,310
quick second you know any means to not

759
00:31:03,560 --> 00:31:00,900
want to be in that depressive state

760
00:31:05,060 --> 00:31:03,570
anymore you know and then once you make

761
00:31:06,350 --> 00:31:05,070
that decision that you don't want to be

762
00:31:08,360 --> 00:31:06,360
in there then you kind of build the

763
00:31:10,130 --> 00:31:08,370
muscle and find the support to kind of

764
00:31:14,000 --> 00:31:10,140
keep on going to that trajectory you

765
00:31:16,580 --> 00:31:14,010
know when you know that and I in your

766
00:31:19,250 --> 00:31:16,590
and your documentary you kind of talk

767
00:31:21,050 --> 00:31:19,260
about Einstein there so there's one

768
00:31:24,680 --> 00:31:21,060
favorite quote from Einstein that I love

769
00:31:26,900 --> 00:31:24,690
and the states that the same mind that

770
00:31:30,110 --> 00:31:26,910
created the problem cannot be the same

771
00:31:31,970 --> 00:31:30,120
mind that solves it so if you know that

772
00:31:33,290 --> 00:31:31,980
your minds irrational and depressed and

773
00:31:35,930 --> 00:31:33,300
you know that you can't make it on your

774
00:31:38,870 --> 00:31:35,940
own then you can you should go seek the

775
00:31:40,490 --> 00:31:38,880
help of a coach or you know a doctor

776
00:31:43,070 --> 00:31:40,500
help you that with that but if you know

777
00:31:43,430 --> 00:31:43,080
in your situation that something's not

778
00:31:44,960 --> 00:31:43,440
right

779
00:31:46,790 --> 00:31:44,970
I need to need to make that choice I

780
00:31:49,490 --> 00:31:46,800
need to make that decision then you know

781
00:31:51,350 --> 00:31:49,500
exactly what you need to do but at the

782
00:31:53,540 --> 00:31:51,360
end of the day you never have to deal

783
00:31:55,480 --> 00:31:53,550
with something alone and there's nothing

784
00:31:58,660 --> 00:31:55,490
wrong with asking for help

785
00:32:00,980 --> 00:31:58,670
completely I can offer up what I've done

786
00:32:03,920 --> 00:32:00,990
some years ago when I was in a dark

787
00:32:05,480 --> 00:32:03,930
night of the soul my spiritual mentor it

788
00:32:05,900 --> 00:32:05,490
was a relationship that went bad after

789
00:32:08,360 --> 00:32:05,910
Chaney

790
00:32:11,600 --> 00:32:08,370
I was a sobbing mess for two years and

791
00:32:13,670 --> 00:32:11,610
then this acquaintance before we became

792
00:32:16,190 --> 00:32:13,680
amazing friends whispered some

793
00:32:17,930 --> 00:32:16,200
metaphysical things in my ear and he

794
00:32:19,970 --> 00:32:17,940
said Keith does it hurt I said oh my god

795
00:32:22,760 --> 00:32:19,980
and I'm snotting him crying it hurts so

796
00:32:24,230 --> 00:32:22,770
bad and then he says all right do you

797
00:32:26,270 --> 00:32:24,240
really want some help to move through

798
00:32:28,130 --> 00:32:26,280
this experience I said yes he says

799
00:32:29,990 --> 00:32:28,140
tonight before you go to bed I want you

800
00:32:32,510 --> 00:32:30,000
to sit and meditate and I want you to

801
00:32:35,780 --> 00:32:32,520
call up in your experience all of it

802
00:32:38,330 --> 00:32:35,790
yeah all of it everything that is so bad

803
00:32:40,100 --> 00:32:38,340
about this and allow it to be there the

804
00:32:41,390 --> 00:32:40,110
fact that she might have a new boyfriend

805
00:32:42,860 --> 00:32:41,400
and the fact he might have more money

806
00:32:43,790 --> 00:32:42,870
than you had bigger muscles and all

807
00:32:46,580 --> 00:32:43,800
these things

808
00:32:49,940 --> 00:32:46,590
imagine the intimacy between a boy and I

809
00:32:53,000 --> 00:32:49,950
did and I did this for a week yeah and I

810
00:32:55,400 --> 00:32:53,010
realized after watching the same sitcom

811
00:32:58,820 --> 00:32:55,410
the same drama series on Netflix for a

812
00:33:01,370 --> 00:32:58,830
week I knew the entire script everything

813
00:33:05,330 --> 00:33:01,380
I was gonna play out and some part of me

814
00:33:07,400 --> 00:33:05,340
decided to shift because I just realized

815
00:33:09,620 --> 00:33:07,410
this is likely going on and there was

816
00:33:11,540 --> 00:33:09,630
nothing whatsoever I can do about not

817
00:33:13,790 --> 00:33:11,550
for some people that might throw them

818
00:33:16,610 --> 00:33:13,800
further into the depression spin it

819
00:33:19,190 --> 00:33:16,620
works for me because it brought aha for

820
00:33:20,960 --> 00:33:19,200
me that I was no longer in control when

821
00:33:23,210 --> 00:33:20,970
I sat with it long enough to realize I

822
00:33:26,720 --> 00:33:23,220
am just focusing constantly on the past

823
00:33:28,130 --> 00:33:26,730
and by coming to that realization the

824
00:33:28,790 --> 00:33:28,140
realization is what brought me to the

825
00:33:32,330 --> 00:33:28,800
present moment

826
00:33:35,980 --> 00:33:32,340
yeah and you think another key component

827
00:33:38,660 --> 00:33:35,990
of I can add is you know the ability of

828
00:33:40,580 --> 00:33:38,670
forgiveness and I think that helped a

829
00:33:42,290 --> 00:33:40,590
lot with you know getting out of my

830
00:33:45,920 --> 00:33:42,300
depression but it's not the forgiveness

831
00:33:47,300 --> 00:33:45,930
that you you know apply to other people

832
00:33:49,250 --> 00:33:47,310
it's kind of the forgiveness you give

833
00:33:51,650 --> 00:33:49,260
yourself for being so mean to yourself

834
00:33:53,480 --> 00:33:51,660
for being so hard on yourself and just

835
00:33:54,890 --> 00:33:53,490
you know I mean a lot of things that we

836
00:33:56,810 --> 00:33:54,900
say to ourselves if we were to say to

837
00:33:58,820 --> 00:33:56,820
our friends we wouldn't have not we

838
00:34:00,320 --> 00:33:58,830
wouldn't have any friends period so it's

839
00:34:02,120 --> 00:34:00,330
almost kind of looking in and diving

840
00:34:04,310 --> 00:34:02,130
deep into yourself and being you know I

841
00:34:05,780 --> 00:34:04,320
I'm sorry for treating you this way I'm

842
00:34:08,150 --> 00:34:05,790
sorry for saying all the things I said

843
00:34:10,940 --> 00:34:08,160
to you and now let's kind of work at

844
00:34:13,130 --> 00:34:10,950
kind of you know healing exactly what it

845
00:34:15,590 --> 00:34:13,140
felt like for me because at the time I

846
00:34:17,960 --> 00:34:15,600
will tell you that I was forgiving her

847
00:34:19,129 --> 00:34:17,970
and this I'm letting it go when that

848
00:34:20,899 --> 00:34:19,139
you're blessed so glad you said that

849
00:34:23,389 --> 00:34:20,909
and when the reality of it all was at

850
00:34:26,240 --> 00:34:23,399
that period in my life I was finding it

851
00:34:28,639 --> 00:34:26,250
within myself to be good to me it took a

852
00:34:30,619 --> 00:34:28,649
while but over a period of time I now in

853
00:34:33,950 --> 00:34:30,629
looking back in hindsight it was a

854
00:34:35,809 --> 00:34:33,960
period of me actually beginning to you

855
00:34:37,849 --> 00:34:35,819
know own the truth that I did some

856
00:34:40,490 --> 00:34:37,859
pretty rotten crap here and there as to

857
00:34:42,440 --> 00:34:40,500
why I was responsible for my dynamic in

858
00:34:44,299 --> 00:34:42,450
the engagement of what happened as to

859
00:34:45,889 --> 00:34:44,309
why things led astray and broke up in

860
00:34:52,940 --> 00:34:45,899
the first place but yeah I would totally

861
00:34:54,589 --> 00:34:52,950
agree I got to a place yeah yeah and I

862
00:34:56,839 --> 00:34:54,599
think that's a that's a place to start

863
00:34:58,579 --> 00:34:56,849
in order to forgive others must first

864
00:35:00,500 --> 00:34:58,589
forgive yourself and I think a lot of

865
00:35:01,970 --> 00:35:00,510
people fail to kind of do that or

866
00:35:04,130 --> 00:35:01,980
recognize that's kind of the aspect

867
00:35:06,200 --> 00:35:04,140
that's needed first before anything else

868
00:35:07,880 --> 00:35:06,210
and I think another thing as we kind of

869
00:35:10,250 --> 00:35:07,890
keep on talking about this is you know

870
00:35:11,930 --> 00:35:10,260
to ask yourself the right questions you

871
00:35:14,299 --> 00:35:11,940
know I know people say there's no stupid

872
00:35:16,130 --> 00:35:14,309
questions but I believe there is suffice

873
00:35:18,799 --> 00:35:16,140
that they're like oh Carol why are you

874
00:35:20,480 --> 00:35:18,809
so stupid and and my intuition says

875
00:35:22,220 --> 00:35:20,490
because you are then that's a stupid

876
00:35:24,259 --> 00:35:22,230
question do you have to ask yourself the

877
00:35:26,480 --> 00:35:24,269
right kind of question it's like why do

878
00:35:28,670 --> 00:35:26,490
I feel this just ease in my body and the

879
00:35:30,710 --> 00:35:28,680
words coming from do I need to shift my

880
00:35:32,509 --> 00:35:30,720
perspective do I need to go and kind of

881
00:35:34,130 --> 00:35:32,519
get help do I need to approach somebody

882
00:35:35,779 --> 00:35:34,140
you don't I mean it's like you have to

883
00:35:38,960 --> 00:35:35,789
ask yourself the right questions in

884
00:35:40,309 --> 00:35:38,970
order to get the right answers so and I

885
00:35:42,170 --> 00:35:40,319
think a lot of people just kind of go

886
00:35:43,970 --> 00:35:42,180
blindly and it's everything that

887
00:35:45,289 --> 00:35:43,980
everybody says it's absolute but it's

888
00:35:47,480 --> 00:35:45,299
almost like you have to listen to

889
00:35:49,130 --> 00:35:47,490
yourself and ask the questions you you

890
00:35:51,680 --> 00:35:49,140
really do have all the answers you ever

891
00:35:54,259 --> 00:35:51,690
needed within you but I think people

892
00:35:57,170 --> 00:35:54,269
trust and I think people need to start

893
00:35:57,980 --> 00:35:57,180
trusting themselves from my book the

894
00:36:02,089 --> 00:35:57,990
Divine Principle

895
00:36:05,359 --> 00:36:02,099
it says the quality of so quantity that

896
00:36:09,890 --> 00:36:05,369
you invest in your questioning is what

897
00:36:13,099 --> 00:36:09,900
will swing your mind door open yes it's

898
00:36:16,009 --> 00:36:13,109
the commonality and the question it's

899
00:36:18,140 --> 00:36:16,019
where we come from inside because you

900
00:36:20,019 --> 00:36:18,150
can ask the same question for a year or

901
00:36:23,779 --> 00:36:20,029
you can ask the same question one time

902
00:36:26,779 --> 00:36:23,789
yeah exactly and it's just knowing that

903
00:36:29,150 --> 00:36:26,789
that very moment is almost like a you

904
00:36:31,910 --> 00:36:29,160
know your intuition will tell you and I

905
00:36:33,140 --> 00:36:31,920
think you know in one of your other

906
00:36:37,580 --> 00:36:33,150
shows

907
00:36:39,980 --> 00:36:37,590
we love so you know with people like Oh

908
00:36:41,060 --> 00:36:39,990
God is talking to me like if we put that

909
00:36:43,100 --> 00:36:41,070
mother people think you were kind of

910
00:36:45,260 --> 00:36:43,110
crazy but it's almost like God talks to

911
00:36:48,830 --> 00:36:45,270
everyone and it's like you just have to

912
00:36:50,900 --> 00:36:48,840
be able to sit down and and be in

913
00:36:53,990 --> 00:36:50,910
silence and actually listen you know

914
00:36:56,420 --> 00:36:54,000
because we all are God we all are one

915
00:36:57,290 --> 00:36:56,430
and we are made made an image and

916
00:37:02,510 --> 00:36:57,300
likeness of God

917
00:37:04,070 --> 00:37:02,520
so you know if you're we know that we

918
00:37:06,320 --> 00:37:04,080
come from the image and likeness of God

919
00:37:09,200 --> 00:37:06,330
then we are all gods we are all

920
00:37:12,710 --> 00:37:09,210
garnishes and we need to start embracing

921
00:37:15,650 --> 00:37:12,720
that and not thinking that you're not

922
00:37:18,050 --> 00:37:15,660
enough you are enough Carol your

923
00:37:21,020 --> 00:37:18,060
microphone and your camera is breaking

924
00:37:22,820 --> 00:37:21,030
up pretty pretty good would you I don't

925
00:37:24,350 --> 00:37:22,830
know if we should do this let's just go

926
00:37:26,720 --> 00:37:24,360
a little further so I may have you sign

927
00:37:28,670 --> 00:37:26,730
out and come back in from the chat room

928
00:37:31,340 --> 00:37:28,680
Grogg that's the question what is the

929
00:37:35,960 --> 00:37:31,350
first step to even start the healing

930
00:37:37,730 --> 00:37:35,970
process to better yourself okay do you

931
00:37:38,320 --> 00:37:37,740
want me to get out or can you hear me

932
00:37:40,430 --> 00:37:38,330
now

933
00:37:44,410 --> 00:37:40,440
let's go let's go with what you are

934
00:37:48,200 --> 00:37:46,370
okay so what was the question again

935
00:37:50,060 --> 00:37:48,210
every question is what is the first step

936
00:37:55,100 --> 00:37:50,070
to even start the healing process to

937
00:38:00,920 --> 00:37:55,110
better yourself wow that's a great

938
00:38:03,440 --> 00:38:00,930
question I would just go back to the

939
00:38:06,290 --> 00:38:03,450
forget forgiving yourself and I think

940
00:38:07,910 --> 00:38:06,300
recognizing you know what I mean being

941
00:38:10,010 --> 00:38:07,920
in the state of everything that kind of

942
00:38:11,930 --> 00:38:10,020
happening to your life and just

943
00:38:14,120 --> 00:38:11,940
forgiving or all that stuff that's

944
00:38:16,310 --> 00:38:14,130
happened could be the past we live in

945
00:38:19,700 --> 00:38:16,320
this present moment and tomorrow's never

946
00:38:23,480 --> 00:38:19,710
guaranteed so to bring yourself and then

947
00:38:28,010 --> 00:38:23,490
although self-love I think there's this

948
00:38:30,710 --> 00:38:28,020
kind of stigma of like being selfish you

949
00:38:32,660 --> 00:38:30,720
know by practicing self-love you know by

950
00:38:36,110 --> 00:38:32,670
doing something in the morning that's

951
00:38:38,500 --> 00:38:36,120
specifically for you and people like no

952
00:38:41,840 --> 00:38:38,510
I'm a husband I'm a mother I'm a mom I'm

953
00:38:44,660 --> 00:38:41,850
you know I'm this director I'm a manager

954
00:38:46,820 --> 00:38:44,670
I don't have time first off people don't

955
00:38:49,430 --> 00:38:46,830
realise we practice love it

956
00:38:53,030 --> 00:38:49,440
a bit selfish you know by waking up

957
00:38:55,460 --> 00:38:53,040
earlier to meditate to go to the gym to

958
00:38:58,670 --> 00:38:55,470
you know feed your body with the right

959
00:39:01,280 --> 00:38:58,680
type of food that in itself will allow

960
00:39:05,090 --> 00:39:01,290
you to be a better you know son a better

961
00:39:07,460 --> 00:39:05,100
you know husband a better you know just

962
00:39:09,230 --> 00:39:07,470
a better overall human being and I think

963
00:39:11,300 --> 00:39:09,240
you need to just always dive deep into

964
00:39:13,400 --> 00:39:11,310
yourself make yourself a study as I

965
00:39:15,740 --> 00:39:13,410
mentioned before forgive yourself and

966
00:39:17,780 --> 00:39:15,750
then make yourself an object of study so

967
00:39:20,990 --> 00:39:17,790
you know exactly who you are what you

968
00:39:26,870 --> 00:39:21,000
want and why you're here I've always

969
00:39:29,720 --> 00:39:26,880
said asking say yeah yeah and and and I

970
00:39:31,700 --> 00:39:29,730
just want people to know that you know

971
00:39:33,830 --> 00:39:31,710
with your personal and spiritual

972
00:39:37,550 --> 00:39:33,840
development is not an overnight process

973
00:39:39,920 --> 00:39:37,560
it's something that is some that you

974
00:39:42,770 --> 00:39:39,930
have I believe it's gonna take a

975
00:39:44,870 --> 00:39:42,780
lifetime because we all are work in

976
00:39:47,390 --> 00:39:44,880
progress so we want to continue to get

977
00:39:48,320 --> 00:39:47,400
better each and every day and I just

978
00:39:50,330 --> 00:39:48,330
want to kind of put that out there

979
00:39:54,230 --> 00:39:50,340
because I think you know even with a

980
00:39:56,210 --> 00:39:54,240
personal development industry is kind of

981
00:39:57,590 --> 00:39:56,220
like think positive or like you know

982
00:39:59,900 --> 00:39:57,600
let's take this intensive and be a

983
00:40:01,970 --> 00:39:59,910
change in talent challenged person I

984
00:40:03,440 --> 00:40:01,980
want you to be this this that but no one

985
00:40:07,730 --> 00:40:03,450
actually gives you the particular tools

986
00:40:10,240 --> 00:40:07,740
and progress and your your spiritual and

987
00:40:14,810 --> 00:40:10,250
personal development takes time so don't

988
00:40:16,730 --> 00:40:14,820
don't feel don't feel that it's not

989
00:40:18,950 --> 00:40:16,740
possible is possible well you just have

990
00:40:20,870 --> 00:40:18,960
to be consistent and you need to

991
00:40:22,640 --> 00:40:20,880
schedule time for yourself each day by

992
00:40:25,400 --> 00:40:22,650
practicing self love and forgive

993
00:40:27,290 --> 00:40:25,410
yourself first yes I've always said that

994
00:40:28,340 --> 00:40:27,300
asking such a question Grogg I don't

995
00:40:30,350 --> 00:40:28,350
know if you're just posing this question

996
00:40:32,900 --> 00:40:30,360
just in general or this is a sincere

997
00:40:35,030 --> 00:40:32,910
question for you what is the first step

998
00:40:37,430 --> 00:40:35,040
to start the healing process to better

999
00:40:39,830 --> 00:40:37,440
oneself that question is the halfway

1000
00:40:42,440 --> 00:40:39,840
point no matter what anyone says that

1001
00:40:44,630 --> 00:40:42,450
question is the halfway point because

1002
00:40:47,000 --> 00:40:44,640
nothing gets underway until that very

1003
00:40:49,490 --> 00:40:47,010
question is asked when you ask that

1004
00:40:51,410 --> 00:40:49,500
question you begin to open on you begin

1005
00:40:53,360 --> 00:40:51,420
to open up the kingdom that would live

1006
00:40:54,920 --> 00:40:53,370
right here that Golden Gate begins to

1007
00:40:56,900 --> 00:40:54,930
open because you know you're rapping on

1008
00:40:59,030 --> 00:40:56,910
the Golden Door you're saying like I

1009
00:40:59,660 --> 00:40:59,040
said just a moment ago the quality of

1010
00:41:04,069 --> 00:40:59,670
your

1011
00:41:05,900 --> 00:41:04,079
questions that you pose is what throws

1012
00:41:07,339 --> 00:41:05,910
the door open and lands you into the

1013
00:41:09,289 --> 00:41:07,349
kingdom into the garden into the

1014
00:41:11,750 --> 00:41:09,299
Stargate in the cosmic room whatever you

1015
00:41:14,329 --> 00:41:11,760
want to call the heart space so but the

1016
00:41:14,870 --> 00:41:14,339
process I would think to for anyone of

1017
00:41:16,700 --> 00:41:14,880
course

1018
00:41:19,339 --> 00:41:16,710
it differs from person to person and

1019
00:41:21,200 --> 00:41:19,349
like Carol said it's all about your

1020
00:41:23,089 --> 00:41:21,210
passion and it's all about your

1021
00:41:25,039 --> 00:41:23,099
sincerity we can ask the same question

1022
00:41:26,569 --> 00:41:25,049
over and over and over again and get

1023
00:41:29,569 --> 00:41:26,579
little bites and crumbs that we can

1024
00:41:32,690 --> 00:41:29,579
handle or we can ask it from a very very

1025
00:41:34,370 --> 00:41:32,700
sincere space and the universe will move

1026
00:41:36,020 --> 00:41:34,380
in such a way dear Lord you haven't you

1027
00:41:39,109 --> 00:41:36,030
have no idea what's sharp in your life

1028
00:41:41,410 --> 00:41:39,119
to help you champion the mountain yeah

1029
00:41:51,579 --> 00:41:41,420
really it's really about one's what

1030
00:41:57,140 --> 00:41:55,430
when you achieve that space yeah and I

1031
00:41:59,539 --> 00:41:57,150
definitely agree with you Keith that

1032
00:42:01,670 --> 00:41:59,549
that question is you know an amazing and

1033
00:42:04,730 --> 00:42:01,680
beautiful question and I mean if we look

1034
00:42:07,250 --> 00:42:04,740
at that the sermon of the mount you know

1035
00:42:09,680 --> 00:42:07,260
when they say you know seek and they

1036
00:42:11,569 --> 00:42:09,690
shall find ask and they'll answer and

1037
00:42:13,609 --> 00:42:11,579
then knock the door will be open on to

1038
00:42:16,760 --> 00:42:13,619
you so I think you asking that right

1039
00:42:18,770 --> 00:42:16,770
question then you know not just acting

1040
00:42:21,589 --> 00:42:18,780
it asking it but then kind of taking the

1041
00:42:23,390 --> 00:42:21,599
the actions towards it then divinity

1042
00:42:26,510 --> 00:42:23,400
will kind of unfold and kind of lay

1043
00:42:27,589 --> 00:42:26,520
certain situations people resources you

1044
00:42:29,599 --> 00:42:27,599
know what I mean

1045
00:42:32,120 --> 00:42:29,609
things will just kind of start falling

1046
00:42:34,510 --> 00:42:32,130
onto your path to make you begin that

1047
00:42:36,500 --> 00:42:34,520
healing process and I think there's no

1048
00:42:38,240 --> 00:42:36,510
coincidence that you're actually here on

1049
00:42:40,789 --> 00:42:38,250
this call because I think if there's

1050
00:42:42,650 --> 00:42:40,799
something that we Keith or I said that

1051
00:42:44,359 --> 00:42:42,660
may kind of shift the needle and be able

1052
00:42:46,609 --> 00:42:44,369
to give you that two millimeter shift in

1053
00:42:49,460 --> 00:42:46,619
the right direction then you know I'm

1054
00:42:52,460 --> 00:42:49,470
grateful for anyone out there who might

1055
00:42:55,190 --> 00:42:52,470
be challenged with such things as

1056
00:42:56,660 --> 00:42:55,200
wanting to find your spiritual path so

1057
00:42:58,609 --> 00:42:56,670
you can walk it deliberately and

1058
00:43:00,200 --> 00:42:58,619
consciously and something right now in

1059
00:43:02,510 --> 00:43:00,210
your life has you kicked in the pants or

1060
00:43:04,970 --> 00:43:02,520
your boogered whatever that is I can

1061
00:43:07,640 --> 00:43:04,980
tell you from many upon many years of

1062
00:43:10,099 --> 00:43:07,650
spiritual study and exploration the

1063
00:43:12,400 --> 00:43:10,109
quandary the problem is the monkey mind

1064
00:43:14,200 --> 00:43:12,410
it's the noise in the head

1065
00:43:15,519 --> 00:43:14,210
we know they ain't we know the devil on

1066
00:43:17,079 --> 00:43:15,529
this shoulder is devilish but are we

1067
00:43:18,970 --> 00:43:17,089
absolutely sure the angel on this side

1068
00:43:21,339 --> 00:43:18,980
is not the same devil in disguise it's

1069
00:43:23,890 --> 00:43:21,349
monkey minded incessant rambling noise

1070
00:43:26,380 --> 00:43:23,900
and for anyone out there who is finding

1071
00:43:28,569 --> 00:43:26,390
themselves in noise are not able to

1072
00:43:31,059 --> 00:43:28,579
touch their soul because in the quiet

1073
00:43:32,890 --> 00:43:31,069
ask yourself or just look around in your

1074
00:43:35,380 --> 00:43:32,900
life or maybe just come to terms it or

1075
00:43:37,390 --> 00:43:35,390
get out of denial about how much you may

1076
00:43:39,039 --> 00:43:37,400
be yammering on in your life because the

1077
00:43:40,569 --> 00:43:39,049
more a person begins to Yammer on and

1078
00:43:41,650 --> 00:43:40,579
talk talk talk talk incessant talking

1079
00:43:44,259 --> 00:43:41,660
talking talking talking

1080
00:43:46,599 --> 00:43:44,269
it's only a reflection of the mind which

1081
00:43:49,210 --> 00:43:46,609
stifles the process of being able to

1082
00:43:51,730 --> 00:43:49,220
touch the quietness of the soul so when

1083
00:43:53,349 --> 00:43:51,740
we get out of the noise what if she left

1084
00:43:55,390 --> 00:43:53,359
me and if I only had that and if this

1085
00:43:57,490 --> 00:43:55,400
and that that's all noise we're not

1086
00:43:59,109 --> 00:43:57,500
looking for duality dear Lord we already

1087
00:44:01,120 --> 00:43:59,119
in it we're looking for wholeness but

1088
00:44:04,539 --> 00:44:01,130
we're not looking to fill the hole we're

1089
00:44:07,180 --> 00:44:04,549
looking to feel the whole myth so we can

1090
00:44:09,609 --> 00:44:07,190
be fulfilled and when we follow to that

1091
00:44:11,410 --> 00:44:09,619
space because we got out of our monkey

1092
00:44:13,900 --> 00:44:11,420
mind that wants to tell us how life

1093
00:44:16,749 --> 00:44:13,910
should be what it is what it isn't

1094
00:44:19,569 --> 00:44:16,759
that's just all duality so we find that

1095
00:44:21,640 --> 00:44:19,579
there's no movement in the mind the gate

1096
00:44:23,980 --> 00:44:21,650
again the gate opens up and the healing

1097
00:44:25,749 --> 00:44:23,990
process began it's we're already healed

1098
00:44:27,579 --> 00:44:25,759
it's not like we're not healed

1099
00:44:29,499 --> 00:44:27,589
we just can't become aware of who we are

1100
00:44:32,079 --> 00:44:29,509
at authenticity because of the noise

1101
00:44:33,430 --> 00:44:32,089
it's just distracting yeah and I think

1102
00:44:34,690 --> 00:44:33,440
you mentioned something earlier Keith

1103
00:44:37,660 --> 00:44:34,700
about meditation

1104
00:44:39,819 --> 00:44:37,670
you know meditation again will help with

1105
00:44:41,680 --> 00:44:39,829
that monkey mind and kind of be able to

1106
00:44:43,960 --> 00:44:41,690
kind of calm yourself down and be able

1107
00:44:46,450 --> 00:44:43,970
to settle all that you know calamities

1108
00:44:48,309 --> 00:44:46,460
in your your brain so making meditation

1109
00:44:49,809 --> 00:44:48,319
part of your daily practice and it

1110
00:44:51,549 --> 00:44:49,819
doesn't have to be so severe like you

1111
00:44:53,289 --> 00:44:51,559
can start off with 10 to 15 minutes a

1112
00:44:54,910 --> 00:44:53,299
day and that's really all that's needed

1113
00:44:57,339 --> 00:44:54,920
but I think the important thing is to

1114
00:44:58,779 --> 00:44:57,349
kind of get it into a practice and you

1115
00:45:02,259 --> 00:44:58,789
know spend time with yourself and really

1116
00:45:04,240 --> 00:45:02,269
listen to your thoughts you know from

1117
00:45:04,720 --> 00:45:04,250
the chat room Gabe asked a question hi

1118
00:45:06,880 --> 00:45:04,730
Carol

1119
00:45:08,950 --> 00:45:06,890
how about teenagers who go through this

1120
00:45:10,809 --> 00:45:08,960
don't they have a harder time to come

1121
00:45:17,859 --> 00:45:10,819
around because they are not emotionally

1122
00:45:20,769 --> 00:45:17,869
mature yet today I honestly believe it

1123
00:45:23,470 --> 00:45:20,779
doesn't matter what age you're at I

1124
00:45:25,029 --> 00:45:23,480
think if you even have an inkling that

1125
00:45:27,579 --> 00:45:25,039
something is

1126
00:45:28,839 --> 00:45:27,589
off-kilter or not in alignment that's

1127
00:45:32,170 --> 00:45:28,849
something that you have to kind of

1128
00:45:34,420 --> 00:45:32,180
explore and I think you know with being

1129
00:45:36,249 --> 00:45:34,430
able to invest in yourself through kind

1130
00:45:37,930 --> 00:45:36,259
of personal development or yours you

1131
00:45:39,999 --> 00:45:37,940
know your spiritual development start

1132
00:45:45,069 --> 00:45:40,009
asking the questions or maybe pick up a

1133
00:45:46,569 --> 00:45:45,079
certain book to read or kind of go you

1134
00:45:48,309 --> 00:45:46,579
know just dive in deeply into yourself

1135
00:45:51,130 --> 00:45:48,319
because I believe what I said earlier

1136
00:45:53,859 --> 00:45:51,140
you have the the answers to whatever

1137
00:45:56,469 --> 00:45:53,869
situation is going on in your life and I

1138
00:45:57,699 --> 00:45:56,479
think the very moment that I applaud you

1139
00:45:59,319 --> 00:45:57,709
for that because I think even you

1140
00:46:01,329 --> 00:45:59,329
recognizing that there's some kind of

1141
00:46:03,190 --> 00:46:01,339
imbalance or inconsistency or

1142
00:46:05,799 --> 00:46:03,200
disalignment you're already halfway

1143
00:46:07,509 --> 00:46:05,809
there so now intuitively you know okay I

1144
00:46:11,170 --> 00:46:07,519
know there's some issue that I'm going

1145
00:46:12,880 --> 00:46:11,180
through now what can i if you ask feared

1146
00:46:15,940 --> 00:46:12,890
or sit in silence and meditation it's

1147
00:46:18,130 --> 00:46:15,950
like what can I do to help me on the

1148
00:46:20,620 --> 00:46:18,140
right path to start rectifying the

1149
00:46:22,870 --> 00:46:20,630
situation and I think when you sit down

1150
00:46:23,920 --> 00:46:22,880
and ask yourself that question certain

1151
00:46:26,109 --> 00:46:23,930
things are going to come to the surface

1152
00:46:29,049 --> 00:46:26,119
and allow you to give you that plan of

1153
00:46:31,059 --> 00:46:29,059
action and if you feel that you know

1154
00:46:33,699 --> 00:46:31,069
whatever comes up you need assistance or

1155
00:46:35,589 --> 00:46:33,709
help with you reach out and don't ever

1156
00:46:37,900 --> 00:46:35,599
feel that you're alone like I think you

1157
00:46:40,449 --> 00:46:37,910
can even reach out to me and you know

1158
00:46:42,609 --> 00:46:40,459
I'll be glad to help and same here and

1159
00:46:44,769 --> 00:46:42,619
always know that spirituality your

1160
00:46:47,739 --> 00:46:44,779
spiritual path to become expanded

1161
00:46:49,989 --> 00:46:47,749
tribute to move into your soul to move

1162
00:46:52,630 --> 00:46:49,999
into your essence trust me when I tell

1163
00:46:53,949 --> 00:46:52,640
you it's more easy than it is difficult

1164
00:46:56,259 --> 00:46:53,959
if you're trying too hard you are

1165
00:46:59,049 --> 00:46:56,269
overshooting your objective and you're

1166
00:47:01,059 --> 00:46:59,059
gonna miss every time it's more simple

1167
00:47:03,609 --> 00:47:01,069
than it is difficult God is simple

1168
00:47:06,489 --> 00:47:03,619
everything is simply not only laid out

1169
00:47:09,549 --> 00:47:06,499
it's simply laid in and so when we

1170
00:47:11,349 --> 00:47:09,559
simply lay into ourselves it simply just

1171
00:47:14,469 --> 00:47:11,359
happens so if we go at it with this

1172
00:47:16,630 --> 00:47:14,479
arduous task kind of mentality it's only

1173
00:47:18,370 --> 00:47:16,640
gonna begin to become this arduous task

1174
00:47:19,689 --> 00:47:18,380
and we can never get up the Mount cuz

1175
00:47:22,689 --> 00:47:19,699
every two steps we take we slide back

1176
00:47:25,989 --> 00:47:22,699
down mm-hmm and another thing I do want

1177
00:47:28,420 --> 00:47:25,999
to point out too is that be careful who

1178
00:47:30,489 --> 00:47:28,430
you surround yourself with and I think

1179
00:47:32,589 --> 00:47:30,499
you know they say that you are the

1180
00:47:35,499 --> 00:47:32,599
average of the five people you spend all

1181
00:47:38,060 --> 00:47:35,509
your time with so I think in your you

1182
00:47:39,350 --> 00:47:38,070
know your your early adolescence

1183
00:47:41,270 --> 00:47:39,360
you have to make sure who you're

1184
00:47:44,150 --> 00:47:41,280
surrounding yourself kind of lift you up

1185
00:47:45,980 --> 00:47:44,160
rather than tear you down you know what

1186
00:47:47,900 --> 00:47:45,990
I mean you also you had need to have

1187
00:47:51,980 --> 00:47:47,910
that supportive environment because if

1188
00:47:54,080 --> 00:47:51,990
you are not mentally strong or yet then

1189
00:47:55,490 --> 00:47:54,090
you can be easily swayed and it will

1190
00:47:57,050 --> 00:47:55,500
take you off your past because it seems

1191
00:47:59,180 --> 00:47:57,060
like you're you're we're already aware

1192
00:48:01,280 --> 00:47:59,190
that most people are to be asking that

1193
00:48:03,470 --> 00:48:01,290
particular question so be mindful of

1194
00:48:05,600 --> 00:48:03,480
that as well and the thing is another

1195
00:48:08,690 --> 00:48:05,610
thing is is that if you continually

1196
00:48:10,520 --> 00:48:08,700
watch garbage you know news and all

1197
00:48:13,220 --> 00:48:10,530
these different kind of things then

1198
00:48:14,810 --> 00:48:13,230
you're gonna speak garbage and soon

1199
00:48:16,730 --> 00:48:14,820
enough you're gonna start to stink so

1200
00:48:18,110 --> 00:48:16,740
just make sure you stand guard in the

1201
00:48:20,240 --> 00:48:18,120
doors of your mind

1202
00:48:22,280 --> 00:48:20,250
of what you kind of take in and I think

1203
00:48:24,230 --> 00:48:22,290
that will help a lot you have to kind of

1204
00:48:26,510 --> 00:48:24,240
immerse yourself and study in yourself

1205
00:48:28,130 --> 00:48:26,520
and then kind of take certain things to

1206
00:48:30,650 --> 00:48:28,140
grow yourself personally and spiritually

1207
00:48:33,800 --> 00:48:30,660
and in the studying of itself it doesn't

1208
00:48:36,190 --> 00:48:33,810
require judgment it just truly it really

1209
00:48:38,930 --> 00:48:36,200
requires to take your issue that you are

1210
00:48:41,030 --> 00:48:38,940
looking to transform you let's use that

1211
00:48:44,030 --> 00:48:41,040
word not change it trance me just to

1212
00:48:45,560 --> 00:48:44,040
have the capacity and the ability to put

1213
00:48:47,380 --> 00:48:45,570
it in your hands and to molding it to

1214
00:48:50,420 --> 00:48:47,390
something else and when you look at it

1215
00:48:52,550 --> 00:48:50,430
just look at it honestly back off from

1216
00:48:53,810 --> 00:48:52,560
it it's not who you are it's just

1217
00:48:55,760 --> 00:48:53,820
something I've been wrestling with

1218
00:48:57,410 --> 00:48:55,770
whoever you are and it's just something

1219
00:48:58,940 --> 00:48:57,420
you've just been playing with I've just

1220
00:49:00,710 --> 00:48:58,950
been playing with this when you try to

1221
00:49:02,390 --> 00:49:00,720
just simply look at it tell it you love

1222
00:49:03,950 --> 00:49:02,400
it kiss it and put it down and say good

1223
00:49:06,200 --> 00:49:03,960
mind and move on to something else so

1224
00:49:08,690 --> 00:49:06,210
been looking at an issue if you oh my

1225
00:49:10,300 --> 00:49:08,700
god am I have I been doing this thing

1226
00:49:13,220 --> 00:49:10,310
and you start compounding the problem

1227
00:49:15,890 --> 00:49:13,230
again spirituality spiritual development

1228
00:49:18,980 --> 00:49:15,900
is more easy than it is difficult it's

1229
00:49:20,720 --> 00:49:18,990
getting out of the fight yes and that's

1230
00:49:22,760 --> 00:49:20,730
amazing that you said that Keith because

1231
00:49:25,640 --> 00:49:22,770
you talked about it in your documentary

1232
00:49:27,650 --> 00:49:25,650
too about like the ego so it's whenever

1233
00:49:30,170 --> 00:49:27,660
you are wanting to kind of change and

1234
00:49:32,570 --> 00:49:30,180
grow maybe take a quantum leap in your

1235
00:49:34,130 --> 00:49:32,580
own development the ego is gonna want to

1236
00:49:36,830 --> 00:49:34,140
be there to kind of hold you down it

1237
00:49:39,260 --> 00:49:36,840
doesn't want you to kind of it wants to

1238
00:49:41,060 --> 00:49:39,270
you to be its slave so whenever you try

1239
00:49:43,010 --> 00:49:41,070
to kind of rise up and try to you know

1240
00:49:44,630 --> 00:49:43,020
raise your standard lift the bar it's

1241
00:49:46,400 --> 00:49:44,640
gonna kind of do things to want to pull

1242
00:49:48,620 --> 00:49:46,410
you back down and you have to be able to

1243
00:49:51,650 --> 00:49:48,630
recognize that you know and there are

1244
00:49:51,890 --> 00:49:51,660
certain feelings uh or thoughts that we

1245
00:49:53,000 --> 00:49:51,900
go

1246
00:49:55,720 --> 00:49:53,010
through and I think I was having a

1247
00:49:58,220 --> 00:49:55,730
conversation with with the movement the

1248
00:49:59,930 --> 00:49:58,230
wake the ffs movement last week and

1249
00:50:01,549 --> 00:49:59,940
we're talking about you know the

1250
00:50:04,789 --> 00:50:01,559
thoughts that come in a lot of people

1251
00:50:06,440 --> 00:50:04,799
have become very sensitive and as a

1252
00:50:08,029 --> 00:50:06,450
result of everybody being sensitive

1253
00:50:11,960 --> 00:50:08,039
they're they're kind of scared to kind

1254
00:50:13,700 --> 00:50:11,970
of speak their truth and and fear of

1255
00:50:15,079 --> 00:50:13,710
hurting other people but it's almost

1256
00:50:17,660 --> 00:50:15,089
like you need to kind of speak your

1257
00:50:19,789 --> 00:50:17,670
truth and also if there are certain

1258
00:50:21,349 --> 00:50:19,799
things that are come up up in your and

1259
00:50:24,019 --> 00:50:21,359
your thought process like oh my god I

1260
00:50:26,569 --> 00:50:24,029
feel kind of jealous I feel envious you

1261
00:50:28,670 --> 00:50:26,579
know of that in certain individual I if

1262
00:50:30,490 --> 00:50:28,680
not actually you it's all the kind of

1263
00:50:33,370 --> 00:50:30,500
thoughts and everything that you've been

1264
00:50:36,289 --> 00:50:33,380
funded through and allowed yourself to

1265
00:50:37,910 --> 00:50:36,299
absorb through social media and again

1266
00:50:40,099 --> 00:50:37,920
it's a part of the the whole Eagle

1267
00:50:42,170 --> 00:50:40,109
process so that's not really you and and

1268
00:50:43,970 --> 00:50:42,180
if they're you kind of have certain

1269
00:50:45,890 --> 00:50:43,980
things that bring that up all the time

1270
00:50:48,049 --> 00:50:45,900
it's almost like okay well if I keep on

1271
00:50:49,519 --> 00:50:48,059
comparing myself to others why

1272
00:50:52,099 --> 00:50:49,529
maybe there's something lacking in me

1273
00:50:54,500 --> 00:50:52,109
that I need to develop so again it's

1274
00:50:57,500 --> 00:50:54,510
always kind of diving deeper into your

1275
00:50:59,299 --> 00:50:57,510
inner being and and to kind of bubble

1276
00:51:00,440 --> 00:50:59,309
those things up and another important

1277
00:51:02,450 --> 00:51:00,450
thing that I'd like to say it like if

1278
00:51:06,440 --> 00:51:02,460
there's since a lot of people are afraid

1279
00:51:08,420 --> 00:51:06,450
to kind of express what is repress then

1280
00:51:10,130 --> 00:51:08,430
they kind of keep themself imprisoned

1281
00:51:11,870 --> 00:51:10,140
and I think if there's anything that you

1282
00:51:13,549 --> 00:51:11,880
guys are going through and struggle like

1283
00:51:16,069 --> 00:51:13,559
when I just kind of shared being

1284
00:51:17,990 --> 00:51:16,079
arrested and charged and thrown in jail

1285
00:51:20,150 --> 00:51:18,000
with all these certain things is that

1286
00:51:22,819 --> 00:51:20,160
the fact that I've talked about it so

1287
00:51:26,210 --> 00:51:22,829
many times that I allowed the power to

1288
00:51:27,769 --> 00:51:26,220
be the power over me to be less so the

1289
00:51:30,380 --> 00:51:27,779
more you're able to express what's

1290
00:51:32,450 --> 00:51:30,390
repress then that won't have that strong

1291
00:51:34,819 --> 00:51:32,460
ahold of you so you just make sure you

1292
00:51:36,349 --> 00:51:34,829
kind of keep on talking about it so when

1293
00:51:38,779 --> 00:51:36,359
I get what I heard you saying Carroll

1294
00:51:41,539 --> 00:51:38,789
said differently is the ego is the

1295
00:51:45,920 --> 00:51:41,549
thoughts we have about ourselves in the

1296
00:51:48,950 --> 00:51:45,930
outside world and so Sadhguru says all

1297
00:51:51,470 --> 00:51:48,960
our thoughts are was accumulated data

1298
00:51:53,210 --> 00:51:51,480
yes about the past it's accumulated data

1299
00:51:54,859 --> 00:51:53,220
and we apply that to ourselves into the

1300
00:51:56,450 --> 00:51:54,869
rest of the world no matter the

1301
00:51:58,370 --> 00:51:56,460
spiritual aspirant no matter what

1302
00:52:00,890 --> 00:51:58,380
spiritual path you walk no matter what

1303
00:52:02,329 --> 00:52:00,900
day it do you follow here's a spiritual

1304
00:52:04,339 --> 00:52:02,339
path and there's no way out of it

1305
00:52:05,660 --> 00:52:04,349
the spiritual path to development and

1306
00:52:07,880 --> 00:52:05,670
expansion is you

1307
00:52:10,940 --> 00:52:07,890
we can see God as being of absolute love

1308
00:52:12,620 --> 00:52:10,950
then this spiritual path is when we

1309
00:52:15,049 --> 00:52:12,630
develop the level of love within

1310
00:52:18,470 --> 00:52:15,059
ourselves to the level that God is

1311
00:52:20,269 --> 00:52:18,480
that's it mm-hmm then the marriage the

1312
00:52:22,460 --> 00:52:20,279
unity between ourselves and divine

1313
00:52:24,769 --> 00:52:22,470
parent happens in the explosion of light

1314
00:52:26,539 --> 00:52:24,779
that happens within you and it's truly

1315
00:52:28,910 --> 00:52:26,549
again it goes back to the simplicity of

1316
00:52:31,069 --> 00:52:28,920
what I said it's more simple than it is

1317
00:52:32,720 --> 00:52:31,079
difficult so if God is loved in the

1318
00:52:34,789 --> 00:52:32,730
spiritual path think any aspirin is

1319
00:52:37,069 --> 00:52:34,799
about develop developing ourselves to

1320
00:52:39,140 --> 00:52:37,079
the level that God is and it's about

1321
00:52:41,299 --> 00:52:39,150
loving self loving self loving self and

1322
00:52:42,740 --> 00:52:41,309
doors open doors open doors open people

1323
00:52:44,480 --> 00:52:42,750
who no longer serve you leave your life

1324
00:52:47,269 --> 00:52:44,490
people announcer you come into your life

1325
00:52:49,730 --> 00:52:47,279
and now together with all this unifying

1326
00:52:51,980 --> 00:52:49,740
conscious power everybody's life goes

1327
00:52:53,559 --> 00:52:51,990
out with a huge explosion of light and

1328
00:52:56,450 --> 00:52:53,569
bang and support of each other and

1329
00:52:58,880 --> 00:52:56,460
whatever comes up for the highest good

1330
00:53:00,980 --> 00:52:58,890
for everybody involved yeah and I think

1331
00:53:03,019 --> 00:53:00,990
you know we just need to keep on raising

1332
00:53:05,269 --> 00:53:03,029
our awareness about ourselves and our

1333
00:53:07,910 --> 00:53:05,279
environment and the people and just be

1334
00:53:09,620 --> 00:53:07,920
constantly able to kind of monitor like

1335
00:53:11,299 --> 00:53:09,630
how we're feeling and you know if

1336
00:53:13,519 --> 00:53:11,309
certain people like you said are not

1337
00:53:15,140 --> 00:53:13,529
serving us and you know they're bringing

1338
00:53:16,700 --> 00:53:15,150
us down you need to kind of eliminate

1339
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those people from your lives

1340
00:53:20,630 --> 00:53:19,349
so that's universe there you know

1341
00:53:23,539 --> 00:53:20,640
divinity can bring in the right people

1342
00:53:26,390 --> 00:53:23,549
on your path you know and and I think

1343
00:53:28,460 --> 00:53:26,400
what you in life you get what you

1344
00:53:30,230 --> 00:53:28,470
tolerate so if you tolerate a lot of

1345
00:53:31,849 --> 00:53:30,240
people being mean to you all the time

1346
00:53:33,380 --> 00:53:31,859
taking advantage of you all the time

1347
00:53:35,390 --> 00:53:33,390
then you're gonna keep on getting those

1348
00:53:37,160 --> 00:53:35,400
those you're keep you're gonna keep on

1349
00:53:39,319 --> 00:53:37,170
attracting those particular individuals

1350
00:53:41,779 --> 00:53:39,329
in your life so in order to do that you

1351
00:53:44,660 --> 00:53:41,789
need to flip the script and start kind

1352
00:53:46,339 --> 00:53:44,670
of empowering yourself and having

1353
00:53:47,809 --> 00:53:46,349
self-worth and knowing that you're

1354
00:53:50,839 --> 00:53:47,819
enough that you don't need to tolerate

1355
00:53:52,339 --> 00:53:50,849
those type of people you know Karen will

1356
00:53:53,660 --> 00:53:52,349
you slowly surely at the top of the hour

1357
00:53:55,160 --> 00:53:53,670
would you leave us with a final thought

1358
00:53:56,480 --> 00:53:55,170
dear I really enjoyed your presence here

1359
00:54:00,740 --> 00:53:56,490
today okay

1360
00:54:03,230 --> 00:54:00,750
my final thought is you know just to

1361
00:54:07,249 --> 00:54:03,240
I'll just say it you just need to wake

1362
00:54:10,099 --> 00:54:07,259
the [\h__\h] up the time is now and belief

1363
00:54:14,960 --> 00:54:10,109
is king so what I mean by that is that

1364
00:54:17,029 --> 00:54:14,970
you need to invest in yourself and bet

1365
00:54:19,010 --> 00:54:17,039
on yourself in this life because you are

1366
00:54:22,190 --> 00:54:19,020
the only one that really matters

1367
00:54:24,650 --> 00:54:22,200
and and no one else don't let the

1368
00:54:26,930 --> 00:54:24,660
external world can I be louder than your

1369
00:54:29,660 --> 00:54:26,940
internal being so develop yourself look

1370
00:54:31,310 --> 00:54:29,670
within and you'll be unstoppable you

1371
00:54:32,990 --> 00:54:31,320
know I like what you said it's really

1372
00:54:35,210 --> 00:54:33,000
that it's it's that way for me

1373
00:54:38,410 --> 00:54:35,220
if we invest in ourselves let's use the

1374
00:54:41,360 --> 00:54:38,420
metaphor of money we invest in ourselves

1375
00:54:44,090 --> 00:54:41,370
then I appreciation level goes up and

1376
00:54:46,880 --> 00:54:44,100
now we have value and now we worth

1377
00:54:49,880 --> 00:54:46,890
something because we really are in a

1378
00:54:52,880 --> 00:54:49,890
current we're in a universal current and

1379
00:54:57,080 --> 00:54:52,890
money is considered currency so we can

1380
00:54:58,640 --> 00:54:57,090
get into that Universal current see what

1381
00:55:00,320 --> 00:54:58,650
begins to happen you are in the flow

1382
00:55:02,150 --> 00:55:00,330
because you're appreciating yourself

1383
00:55:04,580 --> 00:55:02,160
there we go back to appreciation we

1384
00:55:06,860 --> 00:55:04,590
begin to see our value and we expand and

1385
00:55:09,170 --> 00:55:06,870
we see our value expand and the outside

1386
00:55:11,780 --> 00:55:09,180
world begins to validate to us where we

1387
00:55:14,180 --> 00:55:11,790
are in our spiritual growth because you

1388
00:55:14,870 --> 00:55:14,190
know it will dictate you to you exactly

1389
00:55:20,480 --> 00:55:14,880
where you are

1390
00:55:22,970 --> 00:55:20,490
yes exactly and remember all life is too

1391
00:55:25,010 --> 00:55:22,980
short tomorrow's never guaranteed so be

1392
00:55:27,770 --> 00:55:25,020
present in the moment and do what you

1393
00:55:30,650 --> 00:55:27,780
love and what you know do what you love

1394
00:55:33,440 --> 00:55:30,660
and treat opal with love kindness and

1395
00:55:37,490 --> 00:55:33,450
compassion yes Carol thank you very much

1396
00:55:40,160 --> 00:55:37,500
everyone Carol thank you so much yes yes

1397
00:55:44,690 --> 00:55:40,170
benaiah and you can find it at CA or oh

1398
00:55:46,940 --> 00:55:44,700
L ba na y ou s com I'll be in touch with

1399
00:55:49,580 --> 00:55:46,950
you soon wonderful wonderful job thank

1400
00:55:51,050 --> 00:55:49,590
you everyone that's watching uh what a

1401
00:55:52,970 --> 00:55:51,060
phenomenal she'll really enjoy my time

1402
00:55:54,560 --> 00:55:52,980
with this pretty lady next week on

1403
00:55:56,780 --> 00:55:54,570
sooner of light radio my guess is gonna

1404
00:55:59,570 --> 00:55:56,790
be Michael moon who came highly

1405
00:56:02,540 --> 00:55:59,580
recommended by Jason quit V Jason quit

1406
00:56:06,080 --> 00:56:02,550
time traveler Jason quit

1407
00:56:07,610 --> 00:56:06,090
she Kong healer Jason quit jaesik was

1408
00:56:09,050 --> 00:56:07,620
just a really cool dude he plays in the

1409
00:56:10,850 --> 00:56:09,060
arena all over the world and people just

1410
00:56:12,200 --> 00:56:10,860
really flock to him so next week on

1411
00:56:13,580 --> 00:56:12,210
center of light radio mr. Michael moon

1412
00:56:16,100 --> 00:56:13,590
we're gonna be talking about his

1413
00:56:17,960 --> 00:56:16,110
original music chicken but in that field

1414
00:56:21,260 --> 00:56:17,970
but he also comes with a really really

1415
00:56:23,240 --> 00:56:21,270
powerful spiritual punch and also March

1416
00:56:24,980 --> 00:56:23,250
11th for those who are in Memphis

1417
00:56:28,670 --> 00:56:24,990
Tennessee or the area nearby if you're

1418
00:56:30,680 --> 00:56:28,680
not on road trip is always fun March

1419
00:56:31,370 --> 00:56:30,690
11th 5 p.m. at Unity Church on Walnut

1420
00:56:33,140 --> 00:56:31,380
Grove

1421
00:56:35,809 --> 00:56:33,150
road cordova tennessee i'm going to be

1422
00:56:36,620 --> 00:56:35,819
doing my first presentation publicly in

1423
00:56:38,569 --> 00:56:36,630
a long time

1424
00:56:40,249 --> 00:56:38,579
radical transformation I'm gonna go

1425
00:56:41,960 --> 00:56:40,259
inside of you and open you up and even

1426
00:56:43,749 --> 00:56:41,970
the glimpse to soul may begin idea what

1427
00:56:46,490 --> 00:56:43,759
that's like

1428
00:56:51,410 --> 00:56:46,500
where does your memory come from no

1429
00:56:58,609 --> 00:56:51,420
Nancy is where is your memory story the

1430
00:57:00,920 --> 00:56:58,619
brain mind or the soul so if you would

1431
00:57:02,180 --> 00:57:00,930
think of a beautiful memory you have of

1432
00:57:03,650 --> 00:57:02,190
a loved one or whatever it's just

1433
00:57:07,700 --> 00:57:03,660
something beautiful think about

1434
00:57:09,529 --> 00:57:07,710
something we remember something you have

1435
00:57:12,710 --> 00:57:09,539
just touched your soul it's not spring

1436
00:57:15,829 --> 00:57:12,720
it's not your money your memories of the

1437
00:57:17,360 --> 00:57:15,839
wisdom of your life that is our school

1438
00:57:19,640 --> 00:57:17,370
in the library

1439
00:57:21,980 --> 00:57:19,650
that's how easy it is to be in

1440
00:57:23,510 --> 00:57:21,990
conversation with the soil and you come

1441
00:57:24,890 --> 00:57:23,520
to this presentation I'll give you a few

1442
00:57:27,710 --> 00:57:24,900
other ways you can state and that

1443
00:57:29,750 --> 00:57:27,720
constant commune with your divine parent

1444
00:57:31,400 --> 00:57:29,760
and once you get the grasp of this

1445
00:57:34,340 --> 00:57:31,410
larger picture that I've been trained in

1446
00:57:36,470 --> 00:57:34,350
through this presentation you will be

1447
00:57:37,970 --> 00:57:36,480
radically transformed I look forward to

1448
00:57:39,950 --> 00:57:37,980
seeing you next week sinner of light

1449
00:57:41,810 --> 00:57:39,960
radio files off every Monday night 6

1450
00:57:45,230 --> 00:57:41,820
p.m. Eastern Time my name is cute